=)

At the same time when I celebrated my birthday, I realized my position in your heart

Actually, I’m just a passer-by for you, isn’t

But then, thanks for let me know that what I did previously was really ridiculous

Thanks for wake me up from dream
now I feel better

Trying to forget you day by day

This time I really trying hard, not as last time…LOL

And it’s work!!!

Now, I can laugh out more often

The air surrounded also becomes fresher than before

Thanks to you~~

But PLEASE, don’t ever put your footprint in my life anymore

You and I should carry on our OWN life, in different path…=)

happy birthday to me~~=)

Yesterday was my birthday and today is also my birthday according to Chinese calendar

No grand celebration like others, but received a lot of wishes from friends via facebook, sms, phone call, and face to face wishing…

Simple and nice. Feel like I’m the happiest person in the world

I’m glad that I have lived in this world for 19 years already

Every morning when I open my eyes, the first thing I do is thanks to the god.

I will say:”thanks God that I’m still alive.”

Yea. Thanks for everything u all gave me.

• angpau from parents..
• chemistry book and green card from yi mei and jia shyan
• toothpaste and purple card from ji yan
• "apple" tabung from xiao hui
• "toblerone" chocalates and "skittles" from ern theng, tze pei, sook yeen and wen jie
• chocalate from hana
• red card from USS4 SMI 2011

*I’m everything I am, because you loved me~~~

prom evening~~

Attended sixth form graduation day last evening…

Rushed to home right after school dismissal

Have to dressed myself at least “nicely” before I went to school again

I wonder why is it organized graduation day on school day, some more just left few hours  for us to prepared ourselves…that is ridiculous!!!

Any way, we can’t object, but have to accept it…

What a “democratic” school…

Had fun with friends and took lots of photos for memorable purpose…

After the end of the event, we went to night market searched for food (those foods prepared for us during graduation day were …) LOL

So, I reached home about 10 at night

Although tiring yet happy~~=)

jpp gang!!!

leng luissss~~XD

meaningFUL

Carried out many events last weekend

It makes my life busier and tiring yet meaningful and satisfied

First, went to Ipoh parade with ym and js to celebrated js’s birthday

Had lunch at sushi king and watched “Johnny English Reborn” after that

This movie was very funny till I can hear people in the cinema laughing non-stop

Especially the guy sat beside me, his laugh quite annoyed actually

Unforgettable, I saw my old primary school’s classmate in the cinema; moreover, we sat at the same row…

It really surprised me, I saw she sat with a guy, so I didn’t greet her …haha… everyone seems busy with “something” called LOVE~~

*happy birthday, js!!!

Then, on Saturday, I went for a medical camp which organized by rotary club as a helper with jy

This medical held at a place far-off from city, called “kampong sungai limau”

It actually located near my hometown, Chenderiang

Residents in this kampong mainly are orang asli and they quite lack of modern medical equipment, I’m sure, this medical camp brought lots of benefits to them…

In addition, I met many new friends there, from UTP…

And we were in charged of distributed the foods to the children as well as adult

Those kids were friendly and naïve, they don’t even scare of us (strangers)

They were so happy for the presence of us, played with us…

I’m still remembered when we left, a girl said goodbye to me with her truly heart

I can see appreciation in her eyes, I was so touched…

This experience means a lot to me…

On Sunday, I went to a charity bazaar which actually collecting donation for thalessemia patients

Had tons of fun with friends besides giving strength and support to those patients…

Although all these activities didn’t bring any extra-curricular marks, no any rewards

But there are satisfactions in my heart that can’t buy with money…

nice place.kampong Sungai Limau~~

had tons of fun with them~~



food for the kids..=)



transformer~~



see how the mom carry her child....







Help other when you are able to…





Trial finally come to an end and I know this time my result will be … … again

Maybe because of my mind suddenly becomes too free, I started to think nonsense again

I wonder how weak the bond between us

Is it just a weak Van der Waal’s forces or a strong covalent bond…?

What is the position of me in your heart??

ME, for you, as heavier as rocks or as lighter as leather???

Sometimes, I hate you so much because when I totally let my mind out of you, then you will suddenly appear and makes my mind confused again…

Can you please leave me alone… just forget the existence of me

Don’t even border anything about me

Maybe my life will be better from now on~~

Seems like everyone is enjoying their holiday

But I’m the exception…suffering in this “HOLIDAY”

Have to prepare myself for the coming trial

Work hard for the last chance in my study life…

Wake up in every early morning just for study

My parents wonder: since when my daughter becomes so hardworking???

=. =    yes. I showed this face expression to them

Honestly, I can’t sleep well

Every time I wish to wake up late a bit

The phrase “no time! No time!!” will automatically flashed in my mind

Make me can’t close my eyes at all!!!

Okay…that’s all…

Studies…have to be continued~~~

*Sigh~~~~

H.I.M.

Suddenly remember of you

So, how are you now???

Lost all the way of contact with you

It was almost 3 years already

Still remember clearly that moment when I heard about you from friends

I was totally shocked that time

I wonder why you will choose me among them

All my friends feel jealous on me

But you still didn’t take any action

As well as me too

We were waiting someone to take action first, right?

Waiting… waiting and still waiting…

Until the end of my working day

You still didn’t said anything

I wonder why you dare to talked to your friends but not dare to talk to me

Will it be better if u didn’t told anyone before

Your friends were helping you so much that time

But you still don’t know afraid what

Until the end…we are still strangers to each other

I always thinking

What will be at the end if you told me the truth that time???

Because of the word “afraid”

You lost your chance forever

I always wonder

Are you regretting now?

              or maybe you are totally forgotten who am I already?

Whatever… thanks for giving this unforgettable moment in my life

*to all the people in the world: please voice it out before it becomes too late~~~*

we knew each other from here...

voice out for him...

Feel like want to write something regarding yesterday World Badminton final match

Actually, LEE had did his very best

If compared to Olympic men final match, LEE had improve a lot

This can be seen when he was able to fight back LIN’s smash continuously

it was really AWESOME!!!

He won the first match with score 22-20

It really shocked LIN

However, he lose in the second round with some careless mistakes

With score 21-14 (if not mistaken)

And the third round was really awesome and excited!!!

I screamed it out loudly when LEE obtained the score 21-20

wait for the game point....just one more point...

I thought Malaysia history will be updated by the next moment

But unluckily, our dream spoiled…

LIN won the final match with 23-21

Disappointment was appeared on LEE’s face obviously at that moment

He loses…

Just a bit more…

I know, it’s not his fault

He had try his very best in this game

We Shouldn’t blame him~~~

But yet, there are still many Malaysians are blaming him…

I feel like really want to slap those people

I know he was losing, but have you ever thought from his view???

If we said we are sad, disappointed…

I can say

He is the saddest person in the world; he is the most disappointed person in this moment…

Some of us will think that he is able to gained lots of money just in a competition

But have u ever think that he live in a stressful life???

He participates in different competition every year

Not for himself, not for his family, but is for Malaysia…all Malaysians’ hope!!!

He can’t be an ordinary person in Malaysia anymore

Because everyone attention is put on him…

Just like the saying goes: there is a lot of unexpected painful moment behind a succeed person…

We can't imagine how much painful moment he pass through till now

We never know it~~~

No matter how many people hate you

You still will be my HERO forever~~~

You are the BEST!!!!

LCW!!!

=D

i'm just nothing

When you did something with your fully heart

And that person not appreciate it

Please… stop it!!!

Don’t be that silly anymore…

You are just nothing to them

For them, they will thought that it is your responsible

You SHOULD do it

Even “thank you” this super simple phrase, they will just skip it…

Yes!!!

I waked up … thanks…

I will try not to be that “kind” anymore

Just try to be selfish a bit…

Thanks… I learnt that lesson…

Because I know

I’m NOTHING to you~~

updated...

Buried myself in tones of books recently

What to do??? Trial is coming…

I think I’m going to get crazy very soon

The feeling of depression is closer and closer

I clean up all the subjects’ notes last weekend

And u knows what, I used almost one and a half hour to reorganize all my notes so that its will not look that messy…

And that time. I only realize that I have A LOT or maybe uncountable chapters to be studied on in less than a month of time!!!

My brain is getting bigger and bigger!!!

Can’t sleep well recently when I think about STPM…

It’s just like endless nightmare

If time can reversed back, I sure will study very very very hard during lower six

I swear!!! I WILL!!!!

But I know, it wont come true~~

I really need you now, Doraemon~~~

I wonder is it because of all my memory space is already used up for study…?

I always forget this… forget that recently

Forget to wash school shoes

Forget to do homework

Forget to bring something to school…

Forget to do something my parents asked me to do...etc

Really feel like I’m an Alzheimer patient…=.=

Plus, I become easily to get angry …

Not to other people but angry to myself

Angry that why I’m not as clever as someone

Angry that why I can be that lazy

Angry that why I can wasting time on the unnecessary entertainment such as watching television, online without any purpose, playing phone games, online games….

CPY, do you know that you are very stupid and your results are sucks???

You still can fool around and relaxing??!!!

You thought u really a genius????!!!

You thought you have many years to prepare for STPM???

NOT MUCH TIME LEFT, YOU KNOW?????!!!!!!

Last but not least…SORRY THAT I CAN'T BE PERFECT~~ =(

i need you~~~~

=(

librarian's life. END.

Librarian’s life finally comes to an end

Many memories has been created

Both in bitter and sweet

At first, I always wondering

Why I need to put myself into troublesome just for the extra 6 marks in coco???

Why I need to stay back after school for duty???

Will it be better if I just an ordinary student???

Sometimes, I really feel like want to resign… give up…

Sometimes, I really wish to slap those people who make me angry like hell!!!

But I never take any action…

Because I know I CAN’T do it!!!

From now onwards, no more duty…

No need to face those hated person…thanks God!!!

But undeniable, I learnt a lot…

I learnt how to wrap a book nicer, and I addicted on wrapping!!!

Is there any job related to wrapping??? If this kind of job really exist, I’m sure will be the first person begging for the job…haha

And of course, I met a lot of new friends from library

Some of them really make my librarian’s life happier and meaningful

I know it’s time to REALLY prepare myself towards STPM

Not much time left…

No more excuses for not studying because of this and that…

Now it’s time to put a full stop for librarian’s life

And put a starting mark as a 100% PURE STUDENT!!!

=)

23/07/2011

Attended sports day SMI

The first and the last time

Sounds sad, right???haha

Today was the day to show off our Michaelians’ spirit

and the most excited day in my form 6 study life

We had tried our very best in the class marching competition

But yet, we just got the runners up…

Actually we was quite disappointing

Because our aim is champion

I saw many classmates’ face changed to disappointment when the result was announced

But never mind friends, don’t be sad!!!

We have done our best…

And at least, we got something!!! (the hamper)

We were the best marching team forever!!!

Till now, I still enjoying with the class formation...

Hope I will never forget the step…

I’m addicted to it… lol

USS4!!!!!

After that, went to McDonalds celebrated teacher lee’s birthday

Stayed there for almost 2 hours

Met and gathered with old classmates…

This feeling is really special…

Honestly, feel a bit strange with them…

And sometimes really had no topic to talk about…

But I do appreciate this chance

The chance to remember some sweet and nice memories

Thanks to peoples that organize this gathering every year

No matter how many guests will be attending

No matter how troublesome will be face in organizing an event

Yup!!!

Thanks to you guys for still remember us… remember our beloved teacher who gave lots of inspiration, advices to us...thanks a lot...

Everybody is growing…

Undeniable,

Time really passes with the speed of rocket…=)

fun!!

Attended librarian farewell party today

Still considered okay la…

Had fun there, but not a lot…

Plus, get minor injured during games’ time

And it is damn pain now…><

And my mom laughed at me: “u went for farewell or u went to boxing centre??”

Herng~~~=P

After that, went to parade and loitering there,

And watch “TRANSFORMER 3” there...

Nice movie…

But have to sit at the first row because the cinema was full already...

Lol

First time so “closer” with the big screen…

My neck is pain now…

Never ever sit at that zone anymore…=. =

Back home at 6pm…

That means I went out for almost 10 hours…

Tiredness is the word I can used to describe myself now…=D

it is hard~~

I try my very best to forget

Try to get my mind out of your shadow, everything of you

But I’m failed…totally a failure…

I still curious about your recent news

I know I shouldn’t…

Shouldn’t let you occupying my mind anymore

But I can’t do it!!

Every time I try not to think about you

Your everything will automatically flashed in my mind

What I shall called for this natural phenomenon???

I wonder…is it really what I hope for..??

Or else I just try to hide it up…??

Okay. No need to worry so much

God will arrange everything for us, right???

I think He will choose a right path for me~~~=)

God will choose a right path for me~~

whatever~~

Visited Geological Museum in Ipoh yesterday

As Rotaract Club International Project

Gained lots of knowledge there

There displayed a good collection of fossils, rocks, minerals and gemstones…

Maybe it will be quite bored to some teenagers nowadays

But honestly, I enjoyed myself very much there

Here are some of my photo collections in the museum…

"bling bling" crystal~~*.*

i asked the explainer:"pearl and diamond, which one more expensive?"

he answered:"of course is diamond..."

me:"yakah??i though is pearl...."

buy a key chain as souvenir~~

jed...nice~~~~

OMG!!!DINOSAUR!!!!=D

Unfortunately, I felt sick at night

Suddenly… without any symptoms…

Hard to breathe, no appetite and feel very tired

Because of this, I didn’t attended to school

For library clean up today

Went to clinic in the early morning

Spent RM40.00 for 4 packets of medicines

These medicines will accompany me in every meal from now AGAIN~~

HATE IT!!!

Some more…I purposely asked for a MC letter from the doctor

To prove that I’m not lying

I’m not purposely absent for library clean up because of laziness!!!!

I’m really SICK!!! Okay???

I hate the feeling being misunderstanding by those “lame” people~~~

Anyway…special thanks to daddy accompanying me went to clinic this morning

And even delayed his working time because of me

I’m so sorry for that…

I will take care of myself more~~~

THANKS!!!! TvT

"sweets"

HAIR SPRAY~~

Watched “HAIR SPRAY” last night

The second times I watch this movie

My favourite musical after “PHANTOM OF THE OPERA”

This movie more emphasized on dancing and singing

But what I like the most is the storyline

Hairspray is the story of Tracy Turnblad (Nikki Blonsky) set in 1950s Baltimore.  Tracy is a chubby teen whose goal is to dance on the show she loves, the Corny Collins show.  With the encouragement of her best friend Penny (Amanda Bynes), Tracy continues to strive towards her goal, much to the dismay of her laundromat-running mother Edna (Travolta) who wants her daughter to go into the family business.  Tracy's father Wilbur (Christopher Walken) runs a magic shop and is the existential nice father who believes and encourages his daughter’s dreams and ambitions.  But getting on the show won't be easy for Tracy.  The show manager Velma (Michelle Pfeiffer) has aspirations for her daughter to be the focal point of the show, not a chubby teenager.

Tracy also has an incredible crush on the show's lead dancer Link (High School Musical's Zac Efron).  A romance with him just isn't possible, right?  Being as strong-willed and nieve about the world politics around her, Tracy strives for acceptance of all sizes and colors of people, which isn't easy on an all-white show dance show.

This movie inspired me brave to realize your dream without a doubt

No matter what obstacles u will face in the future

Try to fight all the evils /monsters that blocking your way towards success

And the most important thing is

NEVER  SAY  NEVER!!!!

one of my favourite musical



my favourite too~~



tracy__ a girl who dare to chase her dream
her mom__a woman who scare to show off herself due to the "slimmer" body size
 although she has tallent in dancing~~